Since last time, I've been re-evaluating my priorities in life. For me to do anything, I have to have a game plan. That's just the way that I'm wired, having autism and all. I'm re-evaluating what to do with my computers. I'm also re-evaluating my presence online, because I do have an unhealthy habit of getting fed degeneracy and lies across the internet and feeding into it both in my personal life and online. It's not a good thing and is ultimately hurting me. Don't get me wrong, I still find the internet to be a great tool to do just things, but as Luke kind of implies in a video of his, a lot of us fall into this trap of the dead internet and ultimately become a part of it. This is a flaw of mine and many others who use the internet on a regular basis. Unfortunately for most people, they probably never get out of it. If you're only bothering with smartphone social media applications such as TikTok, Facebook, or X, you're already near the point of no return. Anyway, that's besides the point.
I often feel like just getting up in the morning is a monumental task, much less trying to make things such as my home more, well, homely; or learning something useful like how to actually write software to do the sort of things that I've wanted to since childhood. For years I held onto the kind of child-like idea that what you wanted to do as a child is what you should and must do as an adult. Over the past 5 or 6 years, I've lost faith in that idea. I'm thinking the key to happiness is to resuscitate that kind of wonder that we all had growing up that we lost due to the nature of the world. For me, it's going to require a number of radical changes in how I look at what I'm doing currently. Outside of school, I'm chronically feeding into conflicting ideas from various sources, for example: systemd vs. no systemd, left vs. right (in reality, all politics are a complete disaster), living large vs. living modestly, having privacy vs. using spyware like "normal", et cetera.
It's healthy to get what you believe from various sources, but it's detrimental to take everything as a blackpill or a hard fact. For instance, to stay on topic of what I usually cover, there is a lot of hate for Red Hat over this whole Xorg → XLibre situation. Really, there is a lot of hate for Red Hat in general, but people forget that without a company like that, we wouldn't have a number of things that have made Linux genuinely better. I'm thinking of things like RPM (literally the Red Hat Package Manager), Network Manager, or Wayland. And before you say systemd, I never hated systemd, I only wish for an alternate vision of the GNU/Linux init. It's true that I'm not a huge fan of systemd, but people who hate something need to ask why the thing is so popular. And people who whine about it need to actually come up with their own alternatives to use. Using elogind doesn't cut it, something which only PCLinuxOS and CRUX seem to really understand.
Anyway, as far as Xorg and XLibre are concerned, people think that somehow Red Hat is preventing the source code of Xorg from being forked. As far as I know, Xorg hasn't really been updated in over 10 years, so the source code is all over the place. XLibre already has their repository. I don't see anything that Red Hat is blocking; they are all in on Wayland (just like the majority of distros) which is completely different. Good luck to XLibre, but I think everyone has moved on for good reason.
It's things like that which "blackpill" people though, if you are fed to believe that greedy businesses (which I don't see how Linux businesses are greedy at all, they are throwing a middle finger to Redmond) are trying to hurt Linux, or as a more general example we're fed to believe that everything the "other side" does is just the end of the world, then that's a recipe to be a miserable person. It's incredibly unhealthy, not only to yourself but also to the people around you. It distracts people from the real problems that they face. For me, it's not political shows that my mom likes to watch or systemd feature creep, it's fighting the real war which is getting the energy to achieve what I want to achieve. It's learning new things. It's taking care of my family and myself. It's promoting free software.
Anyway, this is rather rambly and philosophical sounding. To put things short, don't waste your energy on fights over things we don't even own, like our government likes to do. Instead, put your energy into what really matters.